On July 8, 2013, I received laparoscopic surgery to discover stage IV endometriosis, polycystic ovaries, and a benign tumor inside my uterus that would require a D & C procedure, adhesion extraction, and leave me with 4 surgical scars as well as symptoms related to infertility.
That day changed my life, who I was, my future, and everything about me that I had ever thought or believed to be true. I would become suicidal, scared, enraged, fearful, depressed, and hate no one more than myself. It was hard, lonely, and totally confusing, but I would not only survive, I would thrive, and so can you.
For a period of time, infertility destroyed me. The struggle of trying to get pregnant destroyed me. My mind and the blame I felt destroyed me. I let it take over everything that I was until I realized what it had done to me and my life.
I don’t know if I will ever have a baby. I don’t know if I will find answers to infertility. I don’t know who I will be on the other side of this, but all I need to know is that I am committed to being there, because I am brave, I am love, I am strong, and while infertility caused me to believe otherwise, my hope is that you understand that you are too! Infertility Sucks, You Don’t!
This book is a love letter to anyone struggling with infertility. It is NOT a solution, but a real, raw, and painful account of what it is like to survive this disease through the eyes, ears, and soul of someone who lives with it. There is happiness beyond this. You can create it. This is not the end.
This is a book about choice. It is about what happens when you stop seeing yourself as whom you should be and start seeing yourself as whom you are willing to become.
This is a book about possibility and what that looks like from both sides of the coin. It considers hope for the good, but also gives grace to the things, behaviors, or actions that might turn out not so good. It is about creating a positive outcome when things go wrong and seeing the love within you to forgive and take accountability to move forward.
You may not get what you want out of this book. Hell, you may not get what you want out of life. What I got was unplanned. What I got was something that I never imagined. What I got was a version of myself that no longer sees me as being 2 separate people. What I got was a transformation of self, life, love, discovery, anger, resentment, fear, courage, failure, pain, isolation, greed, envy, rage, connection, sorrow, grief, healing, and pain.
What I got was release from infertility, and if nothing else, I hope you can too.
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My heart is with you,
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